Blah blah..

I'm so stoked, I got a ticket to go to Virgin Mobile Festival this Sunday with Rachel in DC!! I GET TO SEE BLINK-182!! :) Jet will also be there, Girl talk, Franz Ferdinand, Weezer, Taking Back Sunday and many more.

I also got a haircut today. I was going to get it shorter, but my hair dresser was like NOOOO I like your long hair.. so instead we cut my bangs and cut my layers shorter. It looks nice! I posted a picture on facebook.

Trying a whole out with the old, in with the new attempt at life since I've been in such a slump lately. I'm trying to bring a lot of changes in with the coming of college.. we'll see how it goes.

:)

Hmm..

I'm going to Ocean City for a week this upcoming week, I'm TOTALLY excited. I need a break from life.

I'm also going to the Baltimore Aquarium with Taylor and her new boyfriend, Will (they are the cutest couple, I'm so happy for her!) soon. I LOVE SEA LIFE OMG!! I'm way overdue on my fish seeing quota. I think I should live at Sea World. I, like every other kid in the world, wanna train the killer whales and shit. How cool would that be?!?

I'm currently yelling at Tricia and Taylor to "be nice" to one another because they are currently under my bed tickling each other and bumping their heads on the top of the bed.

and that's my story.

Internet becoming a bad thing?

I don't like the constant harping on what I'm doing via the computer, its an extremely overwhelming feeling.. it really just makes me wanna stop using facebook/my blog/twitter/myspace, but that's all I have to keep in contact with my friends dammit! I can't win.

Since when

was it okay for exboyfriends to party with YOUR friends? People they've never hung out with outside of you, and maybe only hung out with 2 or 3 times.

Never, that's when.

Both people are severely at fault.

What kind of friends invite your ex to parties anyway, and stop inviting you? Not real friends. This is why they are no longer considered friends.

TO HELL WITH 'EM! :)

xoxoxoxoxo

Ugh.

I've not been inspired to update this lately,

But I'm gonna put it to use and use it to vent..

It's 1 am and I'm having practically an anxiety attack and I cannot sleep. I've been so overwhelmed lately, I just wanna spend a day in bed and cuddle with my best friend Taylor and watch stupid movies and eat buckets of ice cream. I cannot remember the last time I spent an entire day vegging out, because I've been so focused on keeping busy to keep my mind off being lonely. I don't handle lonely-ness well, even if I'm better off alone. I like having someone there to share my thoughts and dreams with. I'm like, regressing. I was doing so well at first, and I'm just getting worse.

I keep having nightmares, I think it's gonna stick with me for a lot longer than I thought.

Then theres my family who have a million problems that anyone who reads this already knows about and they stress me out and I get worrysome.

I'm afraid to leave my mommy in 4 years and move out because I'm afraid she's gonna cry everyday and I don't wanna be the reason for that saddness. The older I get the more attached to one another I think we get.

Communication is such a big deal for me. If anyone has even the most minimal of a problem with me I wanna know as soon as they come to terms with it, and I've never been lucky enough to have anyone like that in my life. I soon hope to.

I'm not excited for college. I'm so upset that everyone is leaving, I see facebook status' every other day from my friends "leaving for such and such college in two days" and it devastates me that I didn't spend time with all the people I wanted to this summer. There are so many people that are leaving, and I haven't seen them since graduation in May, when I had plans to hang out with them over the summer. I feel like a crappy friend.

BLAH. I need a cuddle buddy. :(