Tonight at work I made seven dollars. SEVEN. THAT IS TERRIBLE. I MADE A DOLLAR FOR EVERY TABLE THAT WALKED IN THE DOOR. Terrible. At least I made good money Monday night, thankfully since I get to pick up a table or two on Mondays :]
I'm super stoked for this weekend. Friday night I'm going with Nicole and Rachel to a local bands CD release party then going to Joshs with Nicole to hang out with him and his roommates, then Nicole and I are havin' a sleepovaaaa. :D <3 She normally isn't in town this long, she goes to UMBC for college but since she couldn't afford spring semester she's stuck her. I feel really bad for her cause she hates it but for selfish reasons I like having her here >_> Bahaha.
I have homework to do, in CMP101 which is not a computer class, but a Windows Vista class! Who woulda thought?! It pisses me off to no end because it's an utterly useless class to me. I can't even do my homework on my Mac because the program we use for homework only works with Internet Explorer. God forbid. If you're gonna force me to take a shitty class that is a waste of my time because I'm not even a PC user, can't you at least use Firefox, the superior web browser? Dangggggggg.
On tuesdays I'm at school from 9 am to 4:35 pm. I have only done this day twice so far, and I came home unbearably cranky both times (mother can attest to that). I don't think I could ever work 9-5. It'd be one thing to not be balancing school/work/barn work but it gets hard. I'm not looking for pity but I would just like to not be cranky!
aaaaaaaaaaaaand that's all folks.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Why?
Why do you keep doing this to yourself? You may not be a part of my life anymore, or my problem (thank god) but I still give a fuck what happens to you. Is that bad? I don't think so. It's so disheartening to hear that since our lives took two different paths you're going even further downhill then you already WERE going. You can do so much better for yourself, I can't believe what an idiot you're being.
In other news:
Classes won't be hard, but a lot of work. The workload in all my classes is large, but shouldn't be TOO difficult. So far I'm managing a happy balance between good grades and a life, yay!
I'm very thrilled I get to ride a lot more again! Weather lately has been terrible and prevented me or any of us down there for that matter to ride much if at all. It SUCKED! I also ordered my boots I was given $ towards for Christmas and had to send them back for a smaller calf size.. and now they're back ordered until March. COME ON!! I have THE WORST luck with Dover, especially when it's something I'm highly anticipating the arrival of >:(.
I'm still dating the same boy. Yeah, that one. He's so cute and funny and I adore him to bits and pieces. We never fight, and our little disagreements are quickly settled. It's so enjoyable to finally be in a relationship that isn't just one-sided, with someone who really cares for me/my feelings. Oh, and has a life/job. That's nice, too :D
and ummm stuff and things aaaaand yeah!
done, good night!
In other news:
Classes won't be hard, but a lot of work. The workload in all my classes is large, but shouldn't be TOO difficult. So far I'm managing a happy balance between good grades and a life, yay!
I'm very thrilled I get to ride a lot more again! Weather lately has been terrible and prevented me or any of us down there for that matter to ride much if at all. It SUCKED! I also ordered my boots I was given $ towards for Christmas and had to send them back for a smaller calf size.. and now they're back ordered until March. COME ON!! I have THE WORST luck with Dover, especially when it's something I'm highly anticipating the arrival of >:(.
I'm still dating the same boy. Yeah, that one. He's so cute and funny and I adore him to bits and pieces. We never fight, and our little disagreements are quickly settled. It's so enjoyable to finally be in a relationship that isn't just one-sided, with someone who really cares for me/my feelings. Oh, and has a life/job. That's nice, too :D
and ummm stuff and things aaaaand yeah!
done, good night!
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Bone to pick with society?!
Why is it now the hip/cute thing for girls to be gamers? Because some weird guys find it hot? Whatever it is, I'm sick of it. I hate how I'm being throwed into this category with all these inept girls with 0 personality. I've been playing video games since day one. I don't wanna hear all these girls giggling into the mic on xbox and going 0 and 17, but no one gives a shit cause they're a girl.
Like, really? So gay.
In other news, Key Largo was so fun. I have homesick issues, I will admit, so by the 2nd to last day I was ready to go home. But we had a lot of fun while we're there. It's probably my favorite spot to vacation because it's so low key. It's not a pre-planned vacation where we wake up at 6 am every morning and go do a million different things. We go to bed when we want, wake up when we want, if we wanna go on the boat all we have to do is ask. We had a lot of gooooood food which is always a big plus. mmmmm.
This upcoming week is my last week of winter break before I start spring semester. Not excited, at all. Taking 5 classes, NO history classes... ugh. :( Oh well, I'll get through it.. on the bright side during that semester I'll only be working 2 nights a week, so I'll be able to balance everything. Yay!
Like, really? So gay.
In other news, Key Largo was so fun. I have homesick issues, I will admit, so by the 2nd to last day I was ready to go home. But we had a lot of fun while we're there. It's probably my favorite spot to vacation because it's so low key. It's not a pre-planned vacation where we wake up at 6 am every morning and go do a million different things. We go to bed when we want, wake up when we want, if we wanna go on the boat all we have to do is ask. We had a lot of gooooood food which is always a big plus. mmmmm.
This upcoming week is my last week of winter break before I start spring semester. Not excited, at all. Taking 5 classes, NO history classes... ugh. :( Oh well, I'll get through it.. on the bright side during that semester I'll only be working 2 nights a week, so I'll be able to balance everything. Yay!
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Woopsy.
Sorry I never update anymore. Most of you know why I don't. :S
Life's been pretty stressful lately. As most of you know, my Aunt died about two weeks ago. I found out after a loooooong shift at work, walked in the house at 11 pm on a Wednesday and my dad came out of the bedroom and told me. I took it pretty hard. I immediately called my cousin Zac and just sobbed. I didn't know what to think, or say, neither did he. We were both shocked really. Because I mean we never talk to my Aunt, but when we were younger we both loved her dearly, as we still did to this day, but the older we got the less we saw her.
That Saturday I worked a 10-4 shift and found out that a really good friend of mine from work had committed suicide. He was a cook I was very close with, he almost took me "under his wing" so to say when I first started working there. Whenever I'd come into the kitchen at the beginning of the shift I always got such a warm greeting from him, "KAAAATTTIIIIEEEEE!!!!". He always was a pleasure and we had a lot in common music-wise so I'd always tell him about my concerts I'd go to.
Then I have this guy who's been really creeping on me and I keep trying to get him to go away and he won't. He rang me up at gamestop once and got my name and such and looked me up online and added me on myspace. Quite weird. There's more to that story that I'm not publishing to the public.
My family from NY/NC just departed today. I had a lot of fun while they were all here, but I'm exhausted. I didn't get to sleep in at all on my break until today, and if you know me.. you know I love sleep. It's almost a hobby! We all had Thanksgiving dinner at my Grandmothers Thursday, then on Friday we sat around and played video games and ate food. Rather enjoyable if I do say so myself!
After my friend passed at work, a co-worker and I got into a discussion after being rather slow at work. She just randomly turned to me and was like, "Do you ever think about how we go through life and work so hard to do all these things just to inevitably reach death at some point?" and it really got my head spinning. Why do we? For the temporary satisfaction we can get? What if you don't even get any satisfaction out of the daily things you do in your life? Why do them? You're just gonna die some day, who cares? I've been on a 2pac (a rapper) kick lately, and one of his songs with Notorious B.I.G. called Runnin' basically talks about the same thing, here's the chorus:
now i wonder if they'll laugh when im dead
why am i fighting to live, if im just living to fight?
why am I trying to see when there aint nothin in sight?
why am i trying to give when no one gives me a try?
why am i dying to live, if im just living to die?
The last line reminded me of what my friend was saying. I don't mean to be like a pessimist or emo or anything by any stretch of the imagination. But really, why do people work their asses off, work jobs they hate, and not enjoy life, ESPECIALLY if they're just gonna inevitably die one day? I cannot even fathom having a job I hated. Sure, I have my moments with my current job, but it's not my career, and it's part-time.
My current job has shown me a lot of people who really struggle to make a living, there are so many waitresses there who are in their early to mid twenties and have kids and work full time and never get to see them, and have husbands/boyfriends who just do not give a crap. I really feel for my one co-worker, Ashley. She's the sweetest, funniest woman.. she's so intelligent and has so much potential to do so much more than what she is, but she came from a really messed up family. Her mother is a whack-o and she has two little brothers who she just wishes she could save because they are stuck with her messed up mother but she cannot afford to make a living for herself, her son, her boyfriend AND her two brothers and it constantly breaks her heart. The other day, one of our day-time bartenders named Cheri who is in probably her mid-fifties, told Ashley she would love to be her "mother" and how much Ashley reminds her of a daughter she never had. Ashley started bawling and hugged her and told her how much that meant to her and how she just always feels alone. And then there goes the Katie water-works because I'm just a giant sap. Haha!
With all that being said, and everything that's happened lately, I'm really going to be trying to live for the moment. I don't want to dwell on the past, because that is what brings me sadness. It's only got to get better from here.
Here's to tomorrow, next week, next year.. the future; and whatever it holds.
Life's been pretty stressful lately. As most of you know, my Aunt died about two weeks ago. I found out after a loooooong shift at work, walked in the house at 11 pm on a Wednesday and my dad came out of the bedroom and told me. I took it pretty hard. I immediately called my cousin Zac and just sobbed. I didn't know what to think, or say, neither did he. We were both shocked really. Because I mean we never talk to my Aunt, but when we were younger we both loved her dearly, as we still did to this day, but the older we got the less we saw her.
That Saturday I worked a 10-4 shift and found out that a really good friend of mine from work had committed suicide. He was a cook I was very close with, he almost took me "under his wing" so to say when I first started working there. Whenever I'd come into the kitchen at the beginning of the shift I always got such a warm greeting from him, "KAAAATTTIIIIEEEEE!!!!". He always was a pleasure and we had a lot in common music-wise so I'd always tell him about my concerts I'd go to.
Then I have this guy who's been really creeping on me and I keep trying to get him to go away and he won't. He rang me up at gamestop once and got my name and such and looked me up online and added me on myspace. Quite weird. There's more to that story that I'm not publishing to the public.
My family from NY/NC just departed today. I had a lot of fun while they were all here, but I'm exhausted. I didn't get to sleep in at all on my break until today, and if you know me.. you know I love sleep. It's almost a hobby! We all had Thanksgiving dinner at my Grandmothers Thursday, then on Friday we sat around and played video games and ate food. Rather enjoyable if I do say so myself!
After my friend passed at work, a co-worker and I got into a discussion after being rather slow at work. She just randomly turned to me and was like, "Do you ever think about how we go through life and work so hard to do all these things just to inevitably reach death at some point?" and it really got my head spinning. Why do we? For the temporary satisfaction we can get? What if you don't even get any satisfaction out of the daily things you do in your life? Why do them? You're just gonna die some day, who cares? I've been on a 2pac (a rapper) kick lately, and one of his songs with Notorious B.I.G. called Runnin' basically talks about the same thing, here's the chorus:
now i wonder if they'll laugh when im dead
why am i fighting to live, if im just living to fight?
why am I trying to see when there aint nothin in sight?
why am i trying to give when no one gives me a try?
why am i dying to live, if im just living to die?
The last line reminded me of what my friend was saying. I don't mean to be like a pessimist or emo or anything by any stretch of the imagination. But really, why do people work their asses off, work jobs they hate, and not enjoy life, ESPECIALLY if they're just gonna inevitably die one day? I cannot even fathom having a job I hated. Sure, I have my moments with my current job, but it's not my career, and it's part-time.
My current job has shown me a lot of people who really struggle to make a living, there are so many waitresses there who are in their early to mid twenties and have kids and work full time and never get to see them, and have husbands/boyfriends who just do not give a crap. I really feel for my one co-worker, Ashley. She's the sweetest, funniest woman.. she's so intelligent and has so much potential to do so much more than what she is, but she came from a really messed up family. Her mother is a whack-o and she has two little brothers who she just wishes she could save because they are stuck with her messed up mother but she cannot afford to make a living for herself, her son, her boyfriend AND her two brothers and it constantly breaks her heart. The other day, one of our day-time bartenders named Cheri who is in probably her mid-fifties, told Ashley she would love to be her "mother" and how much Ashley reminds her of a daughter she never had. Ashley started bawling and hugged her and told her how much that meant to her and how she just always feels alone. And then there goes the Katie water-works because I'm just a giant sap. Haha!
With all that being said, and everything that's happened lately, I'm really going to be trying to live for the moment. I don't want to dwell on the past, because that is what brings me sadness. It's only got to get better from here.
Here's to tomorrow, next week, next year.. the future; and whatever it holds.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Why is my brother singing Taylor Swift..? -_-
I never update this thing, I'm sorry! I always look at it because I have it bookmarked and I'm like "hm.. I should update" But I lack motivation, I do enough writing in college now that I usually cannot be bothered.. But right now I can!
I've been super busy with college(work load is a lot)/callie/job/friends/boyfriend (yes, boyfriend, you all already know so I'm not going into detail, sorry!)
I had a horse show like, in the beginning of the month? Went up a level, from intro to pre-novice, and did rather well. 40 dressage score, clean cross country and stadium except I skipped a jumping going cross country, epic fail. Don't wanna think about it ahahah.
I have a dressage show called Chapter Challenge at the end of the month (Halloween/my birthday weekend) which I'm pretty excited for. It's an over night show, too!
Mish, my friend who used to ride with me has recently been coming down to Jen's with me and riding, it's so nice to have her back in my life. We used to be extremely close- and it sucked when we stopped hanging out.. but upon her break-up with her jerk now ex-boyfriend, I get to see her more often again! He was an anti-social hermit who gave her shit every time she hung out with me. Lame-o? Yes.
Been playing an outrageous amount of Xbox 360 lately. Mostly Gears of War, some Call of Duty and just got a new game called Prototype. It's good because it keeps me less tempted to go back to World of Warcraft (although the temptation is still there, thanks to Broseph, it's much smaller). Another thing that's keeping me away from WoW is the past 2 papers I've written in English I wrote on video game addiction (one was illustrative, where you told experiences you've witnessed of your topic, most recent one was cause/effect) and the research I gotta do on it makes me realize how lame MMORPGs (Massive multi-player online role-playing games) are.
It's the time of year where we're gonna start getting hella busy at work. I'm excited for money purposes, but I remember being constantly exhausted at school during this time of year. Hopefully I'm gonna be waitressing within the next month or two, making the money even better, and hopefully also decreasing the work load (busing is seriously slave work and less than half the pay).
I got a new phone! The EnV3. So far I like it, it's already a little glitchy, though. Like it randomly turns off when I go to look at My Pictures, or even though I have my text messages on auto-erase, it claims my inbox is full and won't receive any new messages. Laaaaaaaaaame. Other then that it's shiny and new and pretty and I haven't destroyed it yet so YAY! Also it holds a charge which is amazing. My old phone died in half a day, which was very agitating.
aaaaand that's about it. I'm boring, sue me.
I've been super busy with college(work load is a lot)/callie/job/friends/boyfriend (yes, boyfriend, you all already know so I'm not going into detail, sorry!)
I had a horse show like, in the beginning of the month? Went up a level, from intro to pre-novice, and did rather well. 40 dressage score, clean cross country and stadium except I skipped a jumping going cross country, epic fail. Don't wanna think about it ahahah.
I have a dressage show called Chapter Challenge at the end of the month (Halloween/my birthday weekend) which I'm pretty excited for. It's an over night show, too!
Mish, my friend who used to ride with me has recently been coming down to Jen's with me and riding, it's so nice to have her back in my life. We used to be extremely close- and it sucked when we stopped hanging out.. but upon her break-up with her jerk now ex-boyfriend, I get to see her more often again! He was an anti-social hermit who gave her shit every time she hung out with me. Lame-o? Yes.
Been playing an outrageous amount of Xbox 360 lately. Mostly Gears of War, some Call of Duty and just got a new game called Prototype. It's good because it keeps me less tempted to go back to World of Warcraft (although the temptation is still there, thanks to Broseph, it's much smaller). Another thing that's keeping me away from WoW is the past 2 papers I've written in English I wrote on video game addiction (one was illustrative, where you told experiences you've witnessed of your topic, most recent one was cause/effect) and the research I gotta do on it makes me realize how lame MMORPGs (Massive multi-player online role-playing games) are.
It's the time of year where we're gonna start getting hella busy at work. I'm excited for money purposes, but I remember being constantly exhausted at school during this time of year. Hopefully I'm gonna be waitressing within the next month or two, making the money even better, and hopefully also decreasing the work load (busing is seriously slave work and less than half the pay).
I got a new phone! The EnV3. So far I like it, it's already a little glitchy, though. Like it randomly turns off when I go to look at My Pictures, or even though I have my text messages on auto-erase, it claims my inbox is full and won't receive any new messages. Laaaaaaaaaame. Other then that it's shiny and new and pretty and I haven't destroyed it yet so YAY! Also it holds a charge which is amazing. My old phone died in half a day, which was very agitating.
aaaaand that's about it. I'm boring, sue me.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
I had
3 weird dreams last night, and since this is MY blog, I'm going to talk about them!
Dream #1: Nico decided he didn't want to be an eventer anymore, he wanted to do hunters (a different style of horseback riding) so I supported him and did it too. While jumping at a show, Gulliver broke both his legs and a like.. hellicopter had to come in and they strapped Gulliver to the hellicopter and took him away. I refused to let Callie out of my site from then on in the dream.
Dream #1 kinda meshed into dream #2 which was after the Gully incident Taylor and I were at my house, both getting texts from some crazy number that was like 6987-900000000000 and it was saying shit like "Please don't leave the house, he's trying to get you. I LOVE YOU XOXOX" I don't know, very friggin' weird. And since this is a dream, of course we go outside anyway. We were each going into our cars to leave, and Taylor's wouldn't start. In mine, there was a guy sitting in the passengers seat dressed like Altair from Assassin's Creed, a video game. He didn't say anything and neither did I but I kept trying to get out of my car and everytime I'd open the door it would slam back shut on me, I eventually got it open enough to flail out of it and I lost control of my legs. I started screaming for my Dad and Taylor. Dad came outside and carried me back inside where Taylor already was (dunno how) and we just sat there and listened to my father brutally massacre this guy with a chainsaw. Charming.
Dream #3 was the worst. I was at a wedding for a friend I guess, and my ex and all his family were there. I had been with my family but I guess I drifted away from them and bumped into my ex. I proceeded to beg for him back (????) and he denied me saying these exact words "I don't wanna devote my time to a girl, I wanna devote it to WoW". His mother happened to overhear this rejection and told him she's canceling his WoW account and he had a mental breakdown. She then came over to me and told me when they moved he couldn't find his WoW discs because he had to reinstall it or something and started crying. At this point in the dream I remember hysterically laughing, and walking away back to my family. Then he came after ME and begged for me back, I reluctantly said no and he went away.
My dreams really, really do suck. rofl.
In other news: I get to go to Key Largo this year. HELL. YEAH. :) Sooooo pumped!!!!! I love it there, I'm seriously counting the minutes 'til we board the plane!
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